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The Slide

I would say that my journey (for lack of a better word) toward homeschooling and being Waldorf-y started the day I went back to work full time after having my first daughter. Wow. It was hard. Everyone kept telling me that leaving your little one at daycare every week day gets easier. It just didn’t for me. I remember calling my husband after the six month mark and crying on the phone to him on the way to work. I hated leaving her. Every day I hated it.

But I loved my job. My coworkers? The best. My boss? The uber best. I worked above what is arguably Vermont’s best pizza shop, and across the street from a cafe with the best really big chocolate chip cookies (the best!!). Despite all that, I just couldn’t reconcile the fact that my beautiful little baby girl was going to grow up with someone else raising her Monday through Friday, 8 a.m. to 5:30 p.m. On top of that, her care provider’s values and beliefs would be extremely formative elements in her life. And I barely knew this woman! It all felt utterly wrong. So needless to say, coworkers, cookies and pizza just didn’t take the top spot any longer in terms of how I wanted to spend my days.

It also so happened that at the time, while I was pumping breast milk in the makeshift closet/boiler room of my office building, I was reading books about attachment parenting. I’m pretty sure someone gave me a copy of a book by Christiane Northrup, and I started from there. The subject was fascinating to me, and it all clicked with how I felt in my heart as a new mama. It also validated – much to my frustration at the time – my desire to be home with my daughter.

As luck would have it, an opening came up in my workplace for a part-time from home gig, so I went to talk with my boss about it (he has four grown children and a wife who is a former home school mom and Waldorf educator – so you see the upcoming thread). My boss said to me, “You will never regret this decision.” And six years in, I can say he was spot on. Learning to be home with my daughter (and now daughters) came with a huge (HUGE – I can not emphasize that enough) learning curve, but today my feet are on the ground. There are daily challenges with a seven year old and a four year old (and some days their two-year-old cousin), but I’m making it.

And that’s how this little (epic, life changing) journey began. I always get the urge to write late at night, so I’m putting my butt to bed now. More another day. xo

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Inspired

There are so many people who inspire me. One who is new(ish) to me is Ben Hewitt. I haven’t explained much of my life yet – so before I lead you to assume otherwise, I’ll just say that my and Ben’s lives are likely very different. If you know anything about him, you’ll know he lives off the grid on a farm. I… do not. What we do seem to have in common is the desire to create a life filled with love, beauty and peace. This quote from a recent blog post of his really spoke to me:

“It is always comforting to me to spend time with people who have figured out how to┬ámake their lives work for them, and I’ve come to realize that my greatest respect is for those whose ambition (if even you want to call it that) is reserved for creating a peaceful life.”

It reminds me of my all time favorite quote:

“It is easy in the world to live after the world’s opinion; it is easy in solitude to live after our own; but the great man is he who in the midst of the crowd keeps with perfect sweetness the independence of solitude.” ~Ralph Waldo Emerson’s Self-Reliance

Living a “peaceful life” isn’t easy. There is so much pressure from society – the “crowd” – to be and do. I find it difficult at times to sit back and say “no” or “no, not yet.” I’m a recovering people pleaser (I can feel my pulse quicken just writing that), and my annoyance at the term “FOMO” is probably something I should peel back a little more. So while it’s easy to have ideals – my desire for a peaceful life filled with a tribe of folks working at creating the same – dear Emerson reminds me that those ideals may be lived out easily in solitude, but what about in the crowd? Sometimes the crowd doesn’t understand or even want peace or solitude. And you know what I’ve learned? And maybe Emerson knew this as well. The crowd, when you get down to it, doesn’t matter all that much. Don’t get me wrong. I love community and people fascinate me, but maybe we’re just not meant to justify ourselves to every last person out there. Why would we be? Still, it’s not always easy to march to your own peace-loving drummer.

So what does all of this mean? Well, for me… my husband and I recently made the decision to homeschool our two daughters. And on top of it, we’re going to Waldorf homeschool them. Both styles of education come with their vocal critics (don’t they all, I guess?), but for a lot of reasons that I will eventually get into here, this is the journey our family is meant to be on at this moment. I feel as though we’re figuring out how to make our lives work for us… and we’re doing it in the midst of the crowd. Maybe not completely exactly with the perfect sweetness of the independence of solitude, but hey… we’re on the trail.

So that’s it for now. Baby steps into this blog. We’ll see where we go…

Night!

 

Beginning

Welcome to my blog. I’ve always wondered why people who blog do such a thing. So maybe you’re wondering the same thing about me. I’m setting this up… well… because I have things to say. I’m not a real expert on anything in particular, but I feel like being here and sharing about my world – specific parts, and we’ll get to all of that in time. And ultimately, it’s my hope that the thoughts that I share will find those who need to hear them… much like certain people’s writings have helped me along my own path of personal growth. Maybe where I’ve been, what I’ve done, what I’ve learned, (and what I’m doing and learning), where I’m going will be helpful to you. So here is my first post. More on me and my world to come, but I’ll leave you with one of my very favorite quotes and a teensy little smidgen of a glimpse into my life:

May wisdom shine through me
May love glow within me
May strength penetrate me
That in me might arise
A helper for humanity,
A servant of sacred things,
Selfless and true.

~Rudolf Steiner